I Feel Stuck and Unsure of My Purpose.
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Hi Aumara, Thank you for being available to guide and support us on our journey. One of my biggest challenges in life, and on the spiritual path, is to know which direction to go. Even though I know that there is no right or wrong path necessarily, and that what matters is the attitude in which you approach anything you do, I also know, and have known for as long as I can remember, that there is something specific that I am here to do. Some say that I am being a spoiled brat for thinking this way, and that I should take any job that comes my way, especially given my current financial situation. But the thought of doing that deeply saddens me. It is as if I am grieving the loss of something I have not yet found. Maybe they are right, and if they are I need to know soon. I am learning to listen to my guidance but am often confused between what is true divine guidance versus what is ego or fear driven guidance. I am beginning to learn to decipher the quality of the messages but still feel stuck and afraid to move towards my heart's desire, and away from what seems like the safer path. I lose sight of what is true. I hope you can shed some light on my dilemma. With much love and abundant blessings
Dear Beautiful Shinning Star,
Your light is so bright! But you do not yet see it! You look towards all of the other stars around you to shine their light upon you, and the light you see around you; you believe that it is not yours, but that it is the light of the other stars.You beseech us to assist you by shining our spiritual light onto your physical experience, as you sit within the shadows of your being. To this we say, of course! We are here for you and All.
Let’s begin by looking at where you feel you are now. As you wrote to us, your heart ached! You expressed that you felt that you are missing something and this something is very specific. To this we say you are absolutely correct! Yes, you are missing the Truth of You!
You are looking in so many different directions, as if you are lifting so many rocks to look underneath to find the answer you seek. Yet, each time you lift a new rock you find it does not provide an answer, just more of the same confusion.
We say to you that what you seek cannot ever be found beneath the rocks or in-between the cracks along the pathway of your physical life. You spend so much precious energy trying to uncover the source of true and unfading Happiness and Joy that it is almost like trying to capture a rainbow. You can see it exists, yet you cannot seem to locate its position. You strive to be happy, yet you have not allowed yourself to embrace joy or happiness.
This is truly what saddens you! This is what you grieve for as you place value on things of the physical world. The correct path, money, and physical accomplishments, do you really believe within your heart, that these things are your source of happiness and joy? Do you also really believe that these things are being hidden from you?
We want you to know how beautiful you are! How bright your light shines. But you are the one who is to come to this realization through living the life of your choices.
You say that you’ve always known you were meant to do something. This something you feel is of great importance and to be life-changing. Again, we affirm your correctness! The life you are here to transform is your own. The one to awaken here is you.
The questioning of what to do, which path to travel…oh so much woe! You have shed so many tears, experienced so much frustration and feelings of incompetence as you have spent so much energy in the searching for the correct path. The correct direction to lead you to your happiness and fulfillment of a perceived destiny.
You say you are learning to listen to the Divine Messages. This is beautiful! But we ask you, are you listening to you? Do you not realize your Divinity? You are a Divine Messenger. You are all you need be!
You are suffering from the lack of this realization! You see, you believe yourself to be lacking in so many ways. Yes, you also see your strengths, but have not applied them where they are truly needed. Your courage, determination, and your strong will, are to be placed in the direction of your happiness!